new year!

haha... this is the 3rd time i'm trying to post this.. lolz.
anyw, as i was saying...
the new year's coming, and the old's coming to an end.
the past year hadn't been too bad.
learn many things and begun to See more.
about the world. about people. about myself.
it had seemed so long.. almost like 2 years.. with the diff phases.
and i see where i err. so this year, i must resolve to make it better. to improve.
and i must have the discipline to achieve the resolutions.
workout more, err less.
rest more, stress less.
care more, lone less.
think more, cruise less.
see more, talk less.
happy more, hurt less.
in short, use more heart in everything =)

yeaps. and whew~ finally got home after the gruelling bus ride..
missed the last bus for 66.. and was cursing an swearing cos the bus uncle just left me. T_T

came home only to be greeted by my sis watching the tv.

and as i post, she's whipping up some supper. lolz.. damn i'm gonna get fatter-er-er-er... X(

oh wells.. so all the more must workout. train up for stand chart.

dun wanto cui at just 13km again! if cui also cui at 42.190km lor!

ok but now.. enjoy my choya choya~! *bliss*

frankly to recall.. today's a bittersweet day..

other than realising how broke-er-er-er i really am...

i got reminded of 2 things..

retribution and "hell hath no fury like a woman scorned"

sighed..

and the thought of it made me feel bad then..

well i guess no one likes disappointment..

some more, some less.

i simply cannot stand disappointment.. and i can't hide it or really manage it real well.. =(

anyhows..

i've felt the scorn today >.<

from women who couldn't get what they wanted...

sometimes i really dun quite get it..

or actually i do.. just that the best i can do is probably smile and hope they one day understand..

that if they aren't getting it, there is a reason to it..

the mediocre soul leading a mundane life asks to be insignificant as he already is.

for one, it is more complex.. and i see a shadow of myself in her..

and it's no wonder to me.

another i see a thirst, turned bad when it unfortunately got a nasty shock from reality.

i am an aa person. that is what i cannot deny. despite all my bullocks that i am insignificant(which i do know i am to a large extent).

i cannot hold secrets for long.. generally. lest it's of great great importance.

i'm not as mysterious as i'm portrayed to be, just cos i'm a scorpio or sth..

i'm in fact quite eager to share with the right people sometimes..

and these mean friends. with whom i share quite a fair bit.

but there are some things i have withheld.. for simple and good reasons..

and some things are really better left untold and unknown..

the logic of ham egg and cheese.

and for those who were curious, one reason is it was a one-sided affair.

one way. unidirectional. period. no reciprocation, no dealings, i tink i;m not even considered a first degree friend to that person. i'm not in the person's circle simply.

so spare me the potential humiliation and find other happier things instead. =)

oh wells. not so happy things aside. it's better to talk about the good stuff! heee..

feel accomplished today! tho a lil more broke after buying the things.. but must think as good investment so wun so xin tong... haha

bought a broom, light bulbs and air fresheners

done up the place abit... and it feels... good. heee!

guess i should do it often.. had hoped to personalise the place and make it cosier but.. too bad. i lack the resources and justification to do it so.. lidat lah.

but feels good when there aren't no blinky lights.. no dusty floor...

and the fridge got choc wor! hee hee.. but no container so i never cut the block up to bite size =P

after packing the place and doing the laundry, i chiong back home. almost din make it cos i missed the last bus..

but in the end.. woo hoo!

got home and got choya choya~!

hee..

oh wells. i guess the small little things do matter too. esp if they are happy.

and the non-happy things.. take the useful part only.

this is a skill, a management that can only be learnt thru the years. =)

guess that's abt all for this year..

and as for yu who wants sunshine..

i ain't got no eternal sunshine, but i always have the rainbows.

for the rainy days and the sunny times. =)