sianded

I dun expect life to be a bed of roses.
but i cannot stand this..
when stupid things happen
cos of stupid people
with stupid reasons

i got the lab report today
they were all below average.
and there was one i put in thought, logic common sense hard work
and came to a rationale conclusion.
but. it had a fundamental problem.
non-compliance.
i ranked in accordance with the methods.
i explained the pros and cons.
i chose the methods.
i explained my choice.
and voila!
because i did not present it in a format that was idiot proof.
like put in big big words and tabulate with emphasis
i got penalised.
plus i was said to have wrong calculation
cos i rounded off and the TA couldn't recognise that.
10.1 and 10
hello!
conclusion + stereotype = too much curry and prata makes you dumb.
i am swearing those off.

tried to get my hair cut at the sch salon, and they nicely told me:
sorry, we're fully booked.
with one customer waiting for her treatment to complete, 2 senior staff not doing anything active
and at least 6 empty seats and 20 mins before the next appointment
they are fully booked.
well done.
wish you all the best.

Good Thur!

Joy to the world!
"Christmas Arrives in Stores 29 Oct"

That's it.
This season, it's starbucks for exam study venue.
it's starbucks for catching up with friends.
it's starbucks for chilling away the hot afternoon.

i'm am not going to start the day without my peppermint hot chocolate.
(maybe i should aspire to buy a store for myself! =P)

small world

it's really a small world after all..
where everybody knows everybody though somebody.
it's kinda scary, and kinda warm sometimes.
let's see how things turn out shall we?

i'm screwed

i'm screwed because i gave up.

mundus

sometimes i struggle
between aspiring to be great
and to remain mundane.
perhaps it would have brought me greater consolation
if i were a hidden gem in the rocks.
but somehow, i think not...

bdae

i suddenly have a wish.
it's for yu to celebrate for me.
i guess it would be the best gift i'll ever have so far,
only 2nd to the silently mouthed "happy birthday" i received.

vortex

seriously..
i regret getting drawn into this vortex.

petitbateau

everytime i see that blog,
everytime i see that pic.
i am reminded of the distant coldness..
what do i have to do to make you love me?
what do i have to do to make you smile?
it simply hurts when i am simply ignored.
and not given a chance to fill your void..
or will Fate grace upon me when i am truly ready?

no number of eyecandies can replace you.
i dun even know what else can quite replace you.
the place in my heart belongs to you
it shall be taken, or forever empty.

obligations

i am sick of obligations.
when the fortune teller told me i was on a lucky streak,
i almost wanted to tear down his signboard.

smile

for so long, it had only been meant in the context of lily allen's song.
but today it was different.
smile was purely smile.

dead

i can see ppl giving up on me

Mogget!

I want to be like mogget.
else i want a mogget

U.D.D.E.R.S.

i crave the ice cream from the west mall outlet

Mosrael

what can revive me?

20

well done.

Spent

I'm over.
I'm spent.
i know the day will come that i have burned myself out.
just that i didn't think it would be today.

i have lost all spirit.
i have failed the test of courage today when i was asked a question.
just a simple comment.
one that i had ready swimming around in my head.
yet i couldn' just spit it out.
all i did was freeze.

i am truly sapped of will.
i have no wish to do anything.
Because of this, I am now afraid.
For now I am not afraid to pass on.

bear

shall try to bear as much as possible.
suck it up and keep quiet.
act blur live longer..
siam girls no trouble... =X

oops.....

something tells me i must have accidentally wrecked the plans of another.

don't understand

i really don't get the thoughts of girls.
i don't get their motives,
i don't get their rationale(if any)
i only know that when anything happens,
i get shot not knowing why or whether i deserved the shot.

rue the day

mark my words.

bitchy

i know not everyone is nice.
not everyone is supposed to be nice.
it is not an entitlement.
but it is a great gift to have someone nice around.
and for that i am thankful.

as for the ugly truth about the un-nice ones..
sometimes i really dun get what runs through their head
so what is it that they seek?
the cheap thrill in the split second when they insult someone?
or the ego boost that comes along with it?
or the psychological need to assert their self worth only through this?

these ppl, just be wary.
just pray you are not near me when i'm on a war path,
or worse, feeling bitchy.
else you'd prob wished you weren't born.

vicious tongued

sometimes i dun get what runs through the minds of these ugly bitches..
who cares if you are from hua chong and is reading a double degree?
who cares if you have been playing bridge for a damn long time?
i definitely don't.
so it's to your best interest that you watch what you say.
cos it's not worth it to tempt a scorpio's sting.

birthdays

it's that time of the year,
where the birthdays cluster.
i've been tasked for one.
but of course it isn't my own.

anyhows,
to be completely honest and frank.
i really dun feel having anything done for my birthday.
no more ritualistic foods.
no more obligatory gifts.
no more hazy post-bday accounts.
just a quiet day passed.

i know what i want,
but freedom
simply cannot be bought off the shelf.

Morbid

A morbid thought suddenly dawned over me and i found it interesting.
what thought is this you might ask..

ppl do nice things on birthdays.
be extra nice to the birthday kid.
send the kid presents, get a cake, go for a meal.
ppl wishes the kid happy birthday.
the friends do.
the organizers do.
the acquantainces do.
the passerbys do.
some wish in celebration.
some wish in formality.
some wish in mimicry.
everyone be/plays nice.
it seems to be conspired in such a manner one wat or another..

but has it ever been that..
for one birthday
everyone conspired to perfectly ignore the birthday kid?
and everyone means literally anyone.
no one sees.
no one hears.
no one acknowledges.
no one remembers.
it's as if the kid had never ever existed.

this would be interesting to see.
cos in this:
we either see truely, how lonely this soul is..
or on the contrary how rich in spirit this soul is,
that so many would go to such lengths for him/her.
it would be a sight to behold,
and a lifetime to remember.

hermit?

i am sick of all these dealings.
cos i am sick of hypocripsy.
that's y i choose to keep myself down.
i am not good at maintaining superficial relationships
and i am not planning to take up a course one that.

guess there is a price to pay when you only give it up for the ones that matter.
you get less "friends" but the Friends you get are true.
I consider this worthy.

Guess hermit is really the way for me..
though it's a little old fashioned.. or even ancient.
but i think it should still be applicable now.
范蠡waited. why shouldn't i?

abt giving up

i suddenly recalled what dr henry lee mentioned at his lecture.
that no matter how things are,
try your best and dun give up.
know your limit, but believe and persist.
only then can you "make it possible with the impossible"
a recurring theme in his lecture.
it was not about scientific knowledge, the lecture.
it was about life.
his way of life.
of how he came to be.

a valuable lesson this is.

what i cannot stand most I

accusations is the top thing i cannot stand.
cos the result of accusations is that i get blamed for something that has nothing to do with be.
and i get the aftermath of the blast from it.
like some one can have a bad day, then somehow i end up getting shot
though i never knew how i contributed?(perhaps by "cos i not better than you, so everything you do is bad in my eyes and spoils my day")
or i get shouted at by my mum just cos i din want dinner
(and a cascade of unfounded assumptions that followed)

all these are so absurd!
i really cannot comprehend how calling someone for a favour to help me collect something i left behind(just cos it happened that i knew that particular person was at the place where the item was) could do so much.
i really cannot comprehend how not going for dinner must have many underlying reasons that i never even thought about(just cos i want to rest at home and rest instead of going for dinner since i wasn't hungry)

so they think they are all knowing?
get a life or just roll over.

brokendown

i am broke;
i am broken;
i am down;
i am broke n down;
i am broken, down;
i am broken down.

owing

how come is it that i always seem to be owing ppl?

promotion

i think it's time an advance is coming..
cos everything else is crumbling.

gravity

suddenly, everything's going downhill

pure breed

half bloods are always 2nd rate or outcasted =(

barrage

and so the barrage begins

initiation..

a rippling effect..
making this feel so much like an initiation.
guess i better prepare my speeches and explanation.

paths

i shall tread the path
on which i have the right of way

secrets

there is no such thing as a secret.
it's only a matter of who knows what happened.

i can only hope things won't end up in ultimatums