PLEASE!

will these ugly freaks just roll over and die...

black friday

yest was not friday the 13th,
but it sure was a bad day.

the cost of non-courage

forensics lecture was informative and interesting yesterday.
i just realised the prof was actually taller than me!
and it was a she, not a he from some angmoh country!
amazed.
for the 1st half she took the seat beside me, all the way near the back of the lt.
i had to admit i had the jitters.
for the whole lect i simply concentrated on my own notes.
scribling furiously from time to time.
then the next half just got more interesting.
it was on crime scene management.

as usual, names were called and questions asked.
and in the end, the lecturer gave up, and decided to have volunteers.
and she asked a simple question.
i knew it, but i kept quiet.
the first attempt gave the wrong ans.
then 2nd gave the right one, which was identical to what i had in mind.
but.
what is the use of being right?
when you dun have the courage to fight for it?
in the end,
the wrong ans and the right ans both got a prize
and a positive mark.
well done.

moral of the story,
it doesn't matter whether you are right or wrong,
is how you fight for your case, however wrong you are.
when you win it, then you are it.
and ppl will go along with ya.
who cares if you were right all along.
ppl will still douse you with their foolish waters.

merlion

i shall not touch chomp chomp oysters for at least 2 months
finally revisited the place after so many many years..
it was really a long while ago
back then it was just a place with low ceiling
with lots of heat and smoke
and i could only recalled my parents ordered orh luah
and other stuff to go along with
what nostalgia (or reminder to some ppl how old i am)

i took my cough syrup there.. cos i felt the cough coming for a relapse
and i try to avoid the food.
in the end i still succumbed..
i at a few bits here and there
and finished the oysters.
apparently i seemed the only who would eat the oysters
this is obviously a point for regret.

i felt sick..
real sick.. and queasy.
i spent the whole night keeping down the vomit after that..
(i mean not cos of what was within my front view, mag was pleasant)

thank goodness ym came and saved me.
i drove back asap and the first thing i did
puked out all the bad stuff i had taken in
(together with the unkind comments that some ppl spout without going thru a brain)

i guess that wasn't all.
after i drank water, i puked.
i woke up uber early in the morn i puked.
then later in the morn i puked again.

and they were all bitter! damn...
i recognise the colour of bile when i see it.
i think something is bad.. real bad..
that bad that it irriated my guts!

sigh.
in short, yest was not a good day.
minor conflicts,
delibrate discord,
unkind words.
what is happening to ppl nowadays?

or i think it's just me.
i am stupid cos i expect ppl not to be jerks
cos i expect them to look past ego.
cos i expect them not to be fubar sometimes.
and in life, it doesn't happen.

differences

the fool only recognizes the direction of difference.
the veteran recognizes the direction and magnitude.
The wise recognizes the direction and magnitude,
but appreciates that it summates to a constant.

workaholic

i suspect i'm a workaholic.
cos i dun have a life.
i'm not thirsty for news abt ppl enough.
i'm not online to do browsing enough.
i'm not social just to seek comfort enough.
i'm not aware of outside things enough.
therefore i dun have a Life.
ironic isn't it you would ask?

not mean

i'm not mean.
not median.
definitely not the mode.

i am not the best;
but i hate "i told you so's".
be it spoken or resonating silently in the background.
cos it's a sad sad situation by then.
if only there were more courage at first.

Ego

Ego is such a evil thing.
it creates obsession.
it gives you strength.
it grants you fervor.
it brings you out of your safety;
then it shows you reality.
by now it would have been too late.
you try to learn flying;
or plummet down trying.

But who am i to speak of ego.
i have the stone in hand yet i cannot cast it.
for it had been said let he who has no fault cast the first stone.
I have haven't been faultless.
But I shall cast when I was faulted.

which one is it?

is it the physical beauty
or is it the possible future
that left me a trace of regret?

anyhow,
what's done is done-
and cannot be undone.

monkey

i felt like a monkey today..
while i was picking something out of a klasmates hair..
>.<

working hours

i seem to have working hours that are unusual.
i seem to work better the in the wee hours of the night..
which is not such a good thing when you have to wake up at 6 everyday for lessons..
my oh my.. what am i going to do?

tuesdays

If i were ever to miss sch, tue is the last day i choose
for obvious reasons.
it has the most things going on.
most number of lectures,
other activities such as gym,
cca... dups are always on tues

i never pon tue.. in fact tue is the only day i'll be around in sch
if i were to come for only one day..
but today..
i broke the tradition =(

a dry cough incapacitated me.
the only thing i have in mind now is to breathe freely..
went to the doc at the polyclinic
the moment i mentioned i was going to see the cos for the dry cough,
i was awarded a red sticker...
sigh..
at least the service was relatively fast.
when i saw the doc
it was a simple diagnosis.
she simply says it cos of an allgery resulting in sinusitis and
the back flow of mucus irritates the throat

that doesn;t quite help
i still need to breathe with effort.
sigh.
old already more ailments.. sobbies T_T

better

i think life is much better now..
cos we dun really have to be that bothered
by the things/ppl that aren't worth it
i'm trying to see more of the good company
and have less of the bad company.
hurrays!
just that too bad, sometimes there just happens to be a day or time
we bump into the bad ones
too bad.
shrugs
just let them bend over and die.

sigh

curiosity kills the cat.
too bad.

ugly ppl

the theme these few days seem to be it's all fair.
you can't have all of the best qualities.
if you are smart, you would be lacking elsewhere..
in perhaps social life?
if you are wealthy, you would be lacking elsewhere..
in perhaps cosmetics?
it's all fair in the end.

and so for that double degree bitch that tried to sabo me.
i'm not surprised; you must have a very high cap and very good bridge skills.
good luck to you.

I worn by all these senseless ppl in this sad mad world.
no more playing nice. no more.
not even one drop of it for the pathetic fools that aren't worth a dime.

sci fac

i attended the forensics lecture the other day and
i am reminded yet again why i cannot stand sci ppl...
no wonder they are in sci =X

sytycd

So I wish I can dance.

eyecandy in sci fac

i couldn't believe my eyes this morn when i saw an eyecandy this morn at sci fac!
think should be from med cos of the red "pump it" t-shirt.
wahahahaha..
good day!

-beautiful insanity-

falling slowly

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along


i'll take the boat even if it's sinking.

bleach

it seems slow but i seem to be getting caught on the bleach craze..

but the protangonist always remind me of this someone..
a someone whom i've never got a chance to know...

shallow vs superfical

seriously between the 2 i cannot decide which i can't tolerate more.
guess i rather ppl superfical then shallow


or maybe neither.

Jasmine

i think she's right...
if i make 3 post in one day,
then prob there will be more to come...
=S

tolerance

i realise:
i have low tolerance for ugly ppl and they ugly ways.
and when i say ugly, i dun refer to physical form.
refer to my previous post.

hide

i realised something.
ugly ppl hide themselves.
and they are ugly because they are hiding.

mad world

when people run in circles...

moods

i think it really shows..
like how the jolly mood can infect the others
as with the sorry mood.
ppl receive the jolly mood better
but sadly, it's not always the case for me.

tired

simply unmotivated to reach out.
i need some zest in my life please.
and some peace as well.
take away all these noise from my life for a while.
i need to rest

wake me up when september ends.

stardust

i've watched it again yest
hbo seems to be replying forever and ever..
which is good for me.. since it's one of my fav(other than the devil wears prada)

but it's also a movie i hate..
reminds me of aged history i dun wish recall
the star's radiance both warms me and burns me
it's a mark to always remind me of the lesson

never step beyond the line
i hate pantalaimon

you were on to me and all over me

smouldering

sem seems to be always like that
and the sickening fact that we have to come for 8am lectures almost everyday
just means that getting enough sleep is gonna be a luxury
how i wish all my days start at 2pm

then again, it's not exactly the amount of sleep i get
nothing burns me more than emotional drain
from politics
from strained relationships
from things that are uncalled for

nowadays, lightening events are very very rare.
sobs

09/10

new sem new start
the whole air is so diff..
it seems to get more homogenous now..
quoting cwl, the interparticulate space is greater than before..
and hence greater viscosity...
and it is now harder for the particles to move past one another..
we're all locked in our locations?

maybe it;s SP1203's fault for splitting the class up into 8 factions.
with the staggered timetable and stuff, it's hard to coincide break times..
worse, we have long breaks with nothing to do other than sulk in a corner.

and the dynamics has really changed
in a way i have yet to fully see..
but i shall silently keep watch
just watch and observe, disappear where neccessary
does no good to be whirled into the dirty business of others
those with their own agendas and plans
sick.

watching for daggers

it's so tiring to have to always watch my own back.

same same?

sometimes when i hear others talk abt somebody,
i can't help but wonder would the same happen to me?
that someone somewhere is talking to some other ppl abt me in the same way?

ok

ok simply means "i'm not going to say anymore to you"

like...
how is your day?
ok(dun ask, nothing to tell you about)

how is he?
he quite ok lah(i dun give a damn about him so please dun ask me anything and expect me to say anything about him)

how is my act
it's ok =) (that means i'm not gonna tell you how i really think cos i was checking out the hottie on the other side OR it sucked and i'm too nice to break your fragile little heart)

meetings

i realised how hard it is for any particular 2 ppl to meet by chance in this world.
it seems even harder for 2 ppl suited for each other to meet.
what happened to all the good ppl.

SS

i'm reminded of my singer friend who introduced me to this term.
i'm rather embarrassed that i din know about this till then..
but.. it stands for stir shit.
it's something ppl do for leisure.
some do it for some ulterior motive.


frankly, i sincerely not hope that had turned from present participle to past tense.

sad mad world

this is the reason why i emo.
this is the reason why i feel lone.
this is the reason why i rather be alone.

it's a sad mad world out there.. where it is hard to trust anybody.
everybody has their own agenda.
somebody's always watching something.
everybody's always waiting for their chance to pounce.

be oblivious and do nothing;
then be prepared to be swept away by the undercurrents

sick and tired

i'm really in a bad mood today.
and i know it.
sorry peep for being a grumpy old man(whether you sense it or not)
and sorry for the offences inflicted directly or indirectly.

i'm just tired and about to fall sick soon..
it's coming and i know it.
sigh.
shall keep my peace for as long as possible lest i offend more ppl.

suggestions

hm.. stan sounds like a good proposition =)

camp

had flag day today..
uber tired...
totally hate flag lah.
but still gotta do it.
it was sweet to have a good rest right after that.
and i had a good dinner at engine!
i think i like engine western the most! haha..

name!

i'm seriously considering an english name...
dun think i look like a Jeremiah,
thought i have a friend who insists on calling me that..
Andrew seems nice.. but dunno if i'd fit..
any suggestions my dear friends?

ps: pls no Alvin, though he's a chipmunk too.

Rest!

i'm sick
and i'm tired.
but i cannot bail when it's coming close!
i must pull through for all it's worth,
and chiong throught this last week and make it a blast.
it's not my own.
but for pharm.

then at the end i shall get my sweet sweet rest.
just desserts. =)

always check, never assume

a classic case of dun always trust others to do their job
got screwed up by the vice cap today.
thank goodness 2 other members came to my rescue.
there were miscomms and stuff.
but the most infuriating thing was that i was only told the last minute that we din have enough players!
i dun care what your mentality was
" i thought we could not postpone.. yadar yaday yadar"
it was glaring obvious you were hoping to just let it pass
and constitute a walkover.
you, obvious cannot see a bigger picture.
reminded me of the incident of going up with the ace to no good ending.

if i was informed in time, then
there were many more things that could be done.
though prob they were out of reach of your little mind.
just for your info, no one person knows what to do everytime,
thats why we have a team!

watch and learn boy.