The Truth

You said you weren't happy. I believe that. You said I was inconsistent, unappreciative,self righteous and that made you unhappy. You also said I had not made you feel loved. You said we are very different, in the way we think and in the things we do. All for a very long time. Then why only now? Why push on for the wedding, the house. And simply why drag on for so long? I can't help but think I was just a convenient person for you to get attached to, when you probably thought there were no one else available then. Now things have changed, meeting more people,raised self esteem and confidence. You meet a bunch of gym matea and found a very good "friend" in your gym trainer JJ. He sparked your interest and he reciprocated. He attended to your needs when you were down in a "time of crisis". Sending you home, and going all the way to the bed with you on 2 nights in just 3 days. You claim to have only hugged on the bed, but refused to give further details, and only maintained you did nothing. Yet He was well prepared with his own gym towel(as told by you) to shower at our house when he is driving you home. I find it hard to believe that it was not premeditated. Especially considering he was prepared and you had him twice. The next question is then, how long has it been? Considering the fact that you were both prepared, and he's even attached with a girlfriend. It's not hard to surmise that it grew from a long time back and reached critical mass only sometime ago. You confessed JJ made you see why you were not happy. And we can see how he makes you feel happy. And you claim you hadn't cheated? I doubt it takes documented proof of you and him engaging in sexual activities to count. What you have done so far and also that it must have began before we split, that's already cheating, surely on the emotional level, and of course you deny cheating on the physical level. So don't pin it all on me, when you feel what i have goven was not enough for you and you start to look somewhere else, then finally cutting me off when you found a new boat to jump. You said you had a lot to lose, trying to demonstrate the gravity of the situation. Your superficial reasons seemed strong, but a discerning eye can tell it is not the true primary reason. And your denial on cheating and refusal for explanation is showing. It's time you learn responsibility and fidelity. So go ahead, peddle your show to your friends. I'm sure there are discerning ones who will understand the truth just as there will be deluded ones adverse to reason. And yes, I still give a fuck about reasons. Because they tell.

Gift

The Lord gifted me perception, and bound it with emotions. Perhaps it's to temper me before I can master it, and to rein me in should I go out of hand.

True story

It's not the love language;it's not loss of physical attraction;it's not the getting mad at the nonsense that people and you do. It's simply that you crave for new experiences which I haven't given you. That's the true story.

若是

若是我们坚信,我们可以走到永远。 若是我们真诚,我们将会密无嫌隙。 在那时那刻,妳却真诚坚信地若无其事; 在那时那刻,我们就已划下永远的嫌隙。

Mercy

At this juncture, you might hate me. Or even hate yourself more. Now there is no turning back for the path you have chosen. I've given you chance to explain yourself. You refused it. How I wished you hadn't. Or perhaps you are just showing me mercy by granting me the resolve to leave you, albeit I'm still all battered and bruised.

A chance missed

I saw the signs. And I gave the chance. I thought it was only a phase, until the confrontation. I had stayed my hand until you forced it. I pressed for the truth, which you refused to tell. I was hurt. Badly hurt. Alas I still had faith then, and I decided to give you and us another chance. You abandoned it. I held on to hope, albeit cautiously. In your folly you brewed your fall. Your friends could have saved you, but in their pride and ignorance, condoned you. Now you are beyond saving. You and your "friends" continue the "Don't always blame it on others!" campaign in oxymoron. The hammer eventually falls; only your family had been your true protectors. Maybe all these are from a divine intervention to show me the medley of the seven sins.