The Truth

You said you weren't happy. I believe that. You said I was inconsistent, unappreciative,self righteous and that made you unhappy. You also said I had not made you feel loved. You said we are very different, in the way we think and in the things we do. All for a very long time. Then why only now? Why push on for the wedding, the house. And simply why drag on for so long? I can't help but think I was just a convenient person for you to get attached to, when you probably thought there were no one else available then. Now things have changed, meeting more people,raised self esteem and confidence. You meet a bunch of gym matea and found a very good "friend" in your gym trainer JJ. He sparked your interest and he reciprocated. He attended to your needs when you were down in a "time of crisis". Sending you home, and going all the way to the bed with you on 2 nights in just 3 days. You claim to have only hugged on the bed, but refused to give further details, and only maintained you did nothing. Yet He was well prepared with his own gym towel(as told by you) to shower at our house when he is driving you home. I find it hard to believe that it was not premeditated. Especially considering he was prepared and you had him twice. The next question is then, how long has it been? Considering the fact that you were both prepared, and he's even attached with a girlfriend. It's not hard to surmise that it grew from a long time back and reached critical mass only sometime ago. You confessed JJ made you see why you were not happy. And we can see how he makes you feel happy. And you claim you hadn't cheated? I doubt it takes documented proof of you and him engaging in sexual activities to count. What you have done so far and also that it must have began before we split, that's already cheating, surely on the emotional level, and of course you deny cheating on the physical level. So don't pin it all on me, when you feel what i have goven was not enough for you and you start to look somewhere else, then finally cutting me off when you found a new boat to jump. You said you had a lot to lose, trying to demonstrate the gravity of the situation. Your superficial reasons seemed strong, but a discerning eye can tell it is not the true primary reason. And your denial on cheating and refusal for explanation is showing. It's time you learn responsibility and fidelity. So go ahead, peddle your show to your friends. I'm sure there are discerning ones who will understand the truth just as there will be deluded ones adverse to reason. And yes, I still give a fuck about reasons. Because they tell.