hardy's

apparently hardy's cabernet sauvignon is not meant for the hardy.

destiny

please please please please please!

the fear

I wanna be rich, i want losta money
but i can't say i dun care about clever and i dun care about funny..

afraid

i am afraid to make that first step..
i am worried i'd end up blowing it again.. =(

stone

sometimes, i'm just irritated but inhibited.
cos i'm not fit to cast the first stone.

practice pays off

practice does wonders.
lets you work faster,
drink more,
remain functional.
glad i had practice back then.
and it was tough enough! yayz!

ok

i'm fine! =)

Inspirasi

This is my inspirational wallpaper.

A cat looking up to the heavens, for directions through the winding paths of life.

circle

the circle is closing in..

blur

i guess acting blur and feigning ignorance should have their benefits

blockade

i think when you wall up, nobody can help.
you'll just collect water on rainy days,
till one day you drown in it...

tight vs loose

it is ironic how things are in relationships.
cos the more you treasure something, the tighter the grip
sometimes so much so that it suffocates and slowly dying..
and we just end up losing it all together.
let go too much, and it may go away..

what to do when holding tight and letting loose loses...
i'd choose letting loose.
cos at least you wun suffocate it and lose it permanently when it dies
besides, when let loose, they will eventually return to their rightful place.

run!

running is good for me!
just ran today, in the dead of the night
clears the mind and put the thoughts in running order
(pun intended)

but there is just one prob..
it's hard to run like the wind,
when you weigh like a whale...

run-a-blog

think i ought to invent something that lets me blog as i run.. =D

baggage

i only realised today.. that only with no baggage
can you go further.

melody

i think i'm in love with melody gardot

sight

please grant me the sight to see, strength to act and courage to accept.

ample

please give me ample time and opportunities. please.

winding roads

sometimes when you think you blew it,
maybe you didn't
but does it work the other way round?
guess that depends if you are a optimist or a pessimist.

antagonist

i think i'm more of a reverse person.
where ppl gather, i avoid;
where ppl are curious, i am indifferent;
where ppl rejoice, i worry;
where ppl rest, i work;
where ppl err, i right;
vice versa

I must be an antagonist.
cos pretty much there is only thing that i am not inclined towards the reverse:
defensive signals

will

i'm giving up....
i dunno how long i can hold..

lecture

i remember that when my godma lectured me for my mistakes
she said this at one point
that
boy, you are a guy, don't you do this.

i'm trying my best, really.
but they just come rolling....

really

frankly, i hope i have made the right choice.
possession may not be the best protection.

grief

i grieve for i had lost a best friend.
one lost so long ago.

one that will never come back

you know what

i just did it. just like that, and then, as if nothing has happened.
i think i must be a bastard.

H+

i am a hydrogen of sulfuric acid meeting water.

because of you

i don't have anyone whom i can quietly sit with, to have no worries, no duties, no bondage anymore.
i used to have one.
but not anymore, for a very long time.
all the wrongs, because of you or because of me?

rationality

the thing i need most now is rationality.
because only that, can keep all the tears and pain away.
it's the only anesthetic i have.

unknown future

i was once told:
when you step into the darkness,
you'd find solid ground;
or you'd learn to fly.

i so hope this is true.
i really really need to survive the onslaught of vengeful acts that is to come.

gravity

once i thought this was a song of a story of another person.
i hoped that it will never come a day i'd be the cause of such a story.
but never did i realise, the story was about me back then.
now i see, i have to break free..
dday soon..
all it takes is a trigger

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