bad

天下乌鸦一般黑
阴里蛇蝎十倍毒

surprise

i'm surprise how inurgent i feel, even when the fires are catching up on me.
talk about slow dancing in a burning room

forbidden

what i want always seems to be forbidden
and yet i cannot forbid what others desire of me.

how is this fair?
i am really sick of this..
doing nothing but simply only satisfying the wants of others.

truth

the truth is:
we are all waiting for the other party to make the first move

losing

how do i stop myself from losing friends..
and losing everything else
if i cannot stop myself from losing myself?

mirror

i think this is the phase where i lose myself,
lost all will and sense
and do nothing but drifting along
and mirroring others.
regardless good or bad..
loved or hated...

who will break the mirror and bring the soul trapped in it back to life?

weird

sometimes i just dun get ppl.
i dun get why they are behaving the way they are.
maybe for some, it can be understood, considering the circumstances, the emotions, the opportunites.
but sometimes, i can never comprehend the attitude that ppl have.
i never understand the rationale behind some of the things they do either.
and most of these things are so stupid and immature.
but since most of these happenings are not from those who quite matter,
i guess there is no need for me to get so concerned with it.

pardon me for being so cynical

muster

when will i muster the strength to live.
when will i muster the courage to right.

zombie

yeah that's what i am.. doing nothing but craving flesh...

i want to live my life.

wretch

i feel wretched again.
and wrecked.

i need to get a hold of myself. really.