Sick of Nonsense

I learnt that it is not always worth it to be right all the time. Sometimes, we just have to put up with nonsense just to get by easier. There is however as to how much nonsense one can take. Besides, I don't owe it to anyone to take their nonsense. Yet to put up with their nonsense, I put myself at a lower level. I agree even when I know what they say is not factually true. I hold my tongue and try to cover for them when they make a mistake. I empathise with their views despite how different or absurd they might be. All this, I realise is no good for anyone. In the end, I wind up having to suffer for the mistakes of others. What for? Why should I bother about the inconsiderate and selfish, ungrateful and egoistic bunch? Its not like they do care in the first place!

Now I Know Why

A long time ago, when all was fair, jaz was close, both in heart and body. One day she left. Today I feel for her plight first hand. Now I know how it is like to be undermined constantly, to go unappreciated and banished to follow. No wonder she chose to leave this dysfunctionality. Maybe it's freer to be alone. There will be no one to retort you just for the sake of doing so. No one to try to prove you wrong, just so they can seem less wrong. No one to mock you for knowing something they don't. No one to falsify the truth that you speak.

Ego Sheep

I remember how a good friend of mine from jc kept undercutting me. He was in quite a sad plight then, having just broke up. So I became his food for pride, until I gave him a piece of my mind. All turned out well in the end, with no hard feelings. We were all just kids after all, what ill feelings are there for us to harbour? Now we have all grown. But it's just that some things don't change. There are always people looking to kill to feed their ego. Some, with their huge void within, simply hold no regards for others and taking at will; some, with a lesser hunger, sips on their prey slowly, tending to them like livestock and taking them slowly. We are all guilty of such acts. But that doesn't mean it shall be condoned. Inferiority complexes can be empathised;superiority complexes will not be tolerated. Scoring in one aspect of life doesn't put one right ahead of everyone else in this rat race. It is simply disgusting that by a stroke of luck, skill or talent, one merely gains a little head and then start pretending to be superior and assumes sole command. Leadership and dictatorship are often confused. They may seem to start the same way, but eventually they end in opposite directions. Take heed if you will.

Avoidance > Evasion > Deflection > Negation > Mitigation > Resignation

Hot and cold

The weather was sweltering hot today. So much so that it was sending chills down my spine. It got me confused as to whether it was really hot or cold instead. This reminds me of how the truth and the perception of truth can be so different sometimes. Like how words said don't always mean what they literally mean. Some other times, the truth is simply clouded-by a shroud of doubt, of confusion, of denial- that they do not manifest the way they ought to. Not that it matters, right? GLHF, and hope whatever it is, floats your boat.

Price to pay

I won't mind paying if it is worth it. But I don't know if others would feel the same way.
The other time I would pay would be the time for payback. I'm not a saint and I do believe what goes around comes around. If it's time for me to payback I would have no choice but to accept. What I would not take is to be punished twice and let lightning strike twice. I was a stepping stone once. I will not be one again. I know what I owe, I know how much I am worth and I know when I have a loss. This time, it is probably not me. Shrugs.
Ps. Always remember to repaint the spot where you chipped off the wall! Else everyone will know the spot where someone crashed!

Transparency

Am I really such an open book? Or on with secrets between the lines?

The secret

Some say the secret of getting what you want lies in the law of attraction. Just keep thinking about getting the thing you want, and you will get it. Super willpower! Sounds too good to be true isn't it?
On another note, I think the secret to pulling it through is to stay cool. To quote Harvey from Suits, it's all about remaining cool and confident no matter what happens. So no, I shall not be swayed or be distracted. No point being bothered over something that is not meant for me.

Getting older

I think the main feature of maturity is you won't always say what you think. Many reasons why we hold our tongue. To contain the acid, to spare the rod or to hide ourselves. And sometimes the situation simply does not permit us to speak our mind. Or heart, for that matter.
Such is the burden of growing older.

But at least the older we get, the more lessons we learn from history. And hopefully like lightning, events don't replicate. And even if it does, my reactions shall not. This, I resolve.

Sleepless:GI

Think I'm really getting old. Just a glass of milk before bed makes my GERD and keeps me up =(

Poker face?

The best thing about being a big fat lar is no one really trusts what you'd say and know what you're thinking. Talk about being unfathomable. The secret is not to conceal in secrecy, but to leave doubt with every word and action. This, is the ultimate poker face.

Nosy Parker!

Curiosity kills the cat! Hence, don't be too nosy. Else you won't know what you incur your way!

The other's better! Is it really?

Wthe grass is always greener on the other side. What you don't have looks better. When you can't have it, it's even more so desirable. But is it really that switching is a greater move than staying put?
The saying goes: a bird in hand is worth two in the bush. Technically it is not wrong since factoring the probability of catching the two birds, the certainty of having the one in hand definitely feels more sure than the uncertainty in the former probability. That is but of course the psyche of a typical man of temperament. A man of science-or math for that matter- may argue otherwise stating that the probability of catching the birds is critical. For a novice hunter, the obvious choice is to hold on to the caught bird that hadn't quite come by easily. For a skilled hunter, it becomes a different case. Why limit yourself when you know you have a good chance of getting more when you venture? Though you may possibly end up with nothing, those are quite against the odds. And if the odds are really against you, there is always a next chance it seems.
Another instance where venturing is superior is undoubtedly the Monty hall game. Updated individuals would know the superiority in switching, though it only offers a modest advantage. Yet this small advantage should not be underestimated! It is by minute advantages such as these that casinos and gambling trades make their big bucks. Moral of the story? Stay above the line and eventually, eventually you will be fine.
So now the question comes, to switch or not to switch?
Are the expectations really better for the switch?
This is my puzzle for now.

P.s. may the odd be ever in my favour

Deja vu?

I have been in this situation once again. But would history repeat its sequence of events on a different set of people albeit with me in it again.
If so, I can nickname myself booster.