blogs..

i went blog hopping a little, finding blogs of friends whom i can frequent.
and i saw an entry...
it made me feel cheap. dirt cheap.
i gues i din really know what i was doing.. simply giving in to temptation.. but not instinct.
i wasn't even feeling when i was doing it.. and that's sad.
perhaps i'm just a desperate whore. a flesh plug perhaps, used to stop bleeding and then discarded after use.
and btw, i hate hearing nice things. cos it's my soft spot. i feel better hearing nice things, sweet things.. only to know deep in heart i'm gonna get a hurt real bad later.
i really dunno what else i can do.
continue this type of life or maybe it's time to try to wade back into the light?
it totally sucks to do it without any love. it really does.

you know what? i;m simply careless. deviod of care. no care no nothing.
No love No hope No glory. No Happy Ending.