xiaobai!

i have a war to wage... or not really. just gotta fight to keep my xiao bai alive..
after sinding my vaio to the care centre..then i realised what could be done, was actually supposed to be done by myself.. noneed the care centre ppl lah..
spent the whole of colours lecture trying to restore the c drive.
and by a stroke of fortune, it worked!
and now i'm struggling to update the windows and install the utilities..
meanwhile..
i have to deal with what i left behind in my boldness conferred by a bout of cabernet..
haha... alright, this is no laughing matter.
hope the ppl who read it take it with a pinch of salt.
but kinda glad ppl do bother to read..=)
but just hope they don't jump into wild guesses..
and friends won't be offended by what i posted... >.<

anyw.. think i am kinda insignificant.. or is there a remote possibility that i am significant, but just that ppl don't show it?
regardless.. it bugs me... sadly.. esp when i am such an AA person. =(
or maybe it's my anxiety.. like when ppl don't reply me on msn or sms.. i get worried.. and frantic and all frenzied... anxious for a reply(hopefully positive ones), and worried about having said or done something wrong earlier...
cos i always dunno what i have done bad till it's too late..
really afraid of it...
and the worst feeling to have is to be helpless when something goes wrong...
like regret for a thing done and irreversible..
like despair for the future predetermined..
such is the terror that strikes my very core...