Bitching and mind games

These seem to be the most common agenda in social interaction.
And I frankly do not appreciate these. I am sick of facades, and people doing things I deem ridiculous. Then again one man's meat is another man's poison. Who am I to say anything. For all I know, the other party is thinking the exact same thing about me! But honestly, I would really want to know.
What sort of person are you when you sleep with your friend's boyfriend;and what sort of person are you if you would give the green light for your friend to sleep with your boyfriend?
I'm tired. Spare me the acting, please? Spare me the retribution from your folly, please? Thank you both very much, and yes, there is no judgement from me here. Just take up your baggage and let's all go on with life.

Relationship Status

No, it is not a verbal declaration, a social network profile parameter or a ring of pledge for that matter.
It is not defined by proximity, duration or intimacy.
It is merely a state of mind- mutual, disjoint or otherwise.

Cap'n!

I think I may have gotten too much pirate influence in the past moment, but it gave me a epiphany:
Captain Jack Sparrow probably still loves his Black Pearl, even though it had been sunk and wrecked, changed hands, sent into desolation, and (hopefully) righted at the end of the day.

I learn my lesson

Once bitten, twice shy.
Fooled me once, shame on you;
fooled me twice, shame on me.
Take your mind games elsewhere.
I only answer to true calls of friends.
And oh yes, update: I have wizened a little more and gained resistance to your old tricks. It should be your turn soon-once you stop flailing.

Smile

The last time I smiled to myself for no reason was a very long time ago and for a very long time, there was no reason for me to truly smile.. till recently. =)
It was funny, in both sense of the word. The way the smile just creeps up to your lips, you don't realize it till you suddenly feel the joy it brings.
It is amazing, both the feeling and process.

Abstinence

Finally after one whole month of abstaining-not by choice- I am back here.
Ironically, it has been quite eventful since preceptorship started. Perhaps it is simply cos of the influx of new people into my social circle.
Despite the wild happenings, I realize I do enjoy my times of being alone. Except when the loneliness sneaks up on me again and suffocates me. I stirred a little when my colleague tried to play matchmaker, and maybe a little more with another colleague who seemed to be vaguely advancing with mild interest. Today I was tempted again by a SYT. The only defenses I have against such allure is my inertia and self-disdain.
Looking at the recent company, I am beginning to worry for myself and my closer friends. Unwarranted, perhaps, but I can't help it. The constant debate between settling (both sense of the word) or waiting and reaching.
It is practically impossible to achieve a perfect balance in the tripartite or love, lust and commitment. Still the question remains-to be or not to be?

Bipolar

Today had been a day of ups and downs. Dotted with nice and bad things/people. While I am really happy with the nice things that happened, I am equally upset by the frustrating bad things. I understand the need for balance, but not in this way please, it will drive me crazy!!!!
Just in case you wonder:
Good Things:
Great meals
Fun Shopping
Super shopping buddy for today
Cool things bought
New partner
Jie coming back this weekend

Bad Things:
Spoilt Specs
Horrible transport
Bad Bridge luck
Caught in the rain
Itching and tired eyes
Childish people