condemination

ignorance is really one of the worst things around.
not knowing the situation, and dying without knowing why, is one of the worst things that could happen.
imagine a backstab.
sigh.. all these reminds me of the war game during camp.
never had i been so political in such a long time(though the extent of it is peanuts compared to what ppl usually do at work, in sch, or with family)
forming alliances, breaking alliances, getting betrayed.
it all seemed so trivialised.
and here i am, so silly, worrying about the strain on friendship, kinship
while others are thinking of who and what to exploit next.
i am tired of such things
yet i cannot escape from it.
where can i find ppl who treat others sincerely?
find ppl who truly care?
who won't leave you in the lurch?

i'm sick and tired of the pretense.
i really really am.
oh yes, and dun worry abt any obligations towards me.
it doesn;t really matter anymore.