Sick of Nonsense

I learnt that it is not always worth it to be right all the time. Sometimes, we just have to put up with nonsense just to get by easier. There is however as to how much nonsense one can take. Besides, I don't owe it to anyone to take their nonsense. Yet to put up with their nonsense, I put myself at a lower level. I agree even when I know what they say is not factually true. I hold my tongue and try to cover for them when they make a mistake. I empathise with their views despite how different or absurd they might be. All this, I realise is no good for anyone. In the end, I wind up having to suffer for the mistakes of others. What for? Why should I bother about the inconsiderate and selfish, ungrateful and egoistic bunch? Its not like they do care in the first place!

Now I Know Why

A long time ago, when all was fair, jaz was close, both in heart and body. One day she left. Today I feel for her plight first hand. Now I know how it is like to be undermined constantly, to go unappreciated and banished to follow. No wonder she chose to leave this dysfunctionality. Maybe it's freer to be alone. There will be no one to retort you just for the sake of doing so. No one to try to prove you wrong, just so they can seem less wrong. No one to mock you for knowing something they don't. No one to falsify the truth that you speak.

Ego Sheep

I remember how a good friend of mine from jc kept undercutting me. He was in quite a sad plight then, having just broke up. So I became his food for pride, until I gave him a piece of my mind. All turned out well in the end, with no hard feelings. We were all just kids after all, what ill feelings are there for us to harbour? Now we have all grown. But it's just that some things don't change. There are always people looking to kill to feed their ego. Some, with their huge void within, simply hold no regards for others and taking at will; some, with a lesser hunger, sips on their prey slowly, tending to them like livestock and taking them slowly. We are all guilty of such acts. But that doesn't mean it shall be condoned. Inferiority complexes can be empathised;superiority complexes will not be tolerated. Scoring in one aspect of life doesn't put one right ahead of everyone else in this rat race. It is simply disgusting that by a stroke of luck, skill or talent, one merely gains a little head and then start pretending to be superior and assumes sole command. Leadership and dictatorship are often confused. They may seem to start the same way, but eventually they end in opposite directions. Take heed if you will.

Avoidance > Evasion > Deflection > Negation > Mitigation > Resignation

Hot and cold

The weather was sweltering hot today. So much so that it was sending chills down my spine. It got me confused as to whether it was really hot or cold instead. This reminds me of how the truth and the perception of truth can be so different sometimes. Like how words said don't always mean what they literally mean. Some other times, the truth is simply clouded-by a shroud of doubt, of confusion, of denial- that they do not manifest the way they ought to. Not that it matters, right? GLHF, and hope whatever it is, floats your boat.

Price to pay

I won't mind paying if it is worth it. But I don't know if others would feel the same way.
The other time I would pay would be the time for payback. I'm not a saint and I do believe what goes around comes around. If it's time for me to payback I would have no choice but to accept. What I would not take is to be punished twice and let lightning strike twice. I was a stepping stone once. I will not be one again. I know what I owe, I know how much I am worth and I know when I have a loss. This time, it is probably not me. Shrugs.
Ps. Always remember to repaint the spot where you chipped off the wall! Else everyone will know the spot where someone crashed!

Transparency

Am I really such an open book? Or on with secrets between the lines?