True story

It's not the love language;it's not loss of physical attraction;it's not the getting mad at the nonsense that people and you do. It's simply that you crave for new experiences which I haven't given you. That's the true story.

若是

若是我们坚信,我们可以走到永远。 若是我们真诚,我们将会密无嫌隙。 在那时那刻,妳却真诚坚信地若无其事; 在那时那刻,我们就已划下永远的嫌隙。

Mercy

At this juncture, you might hate me. Or even hate yourself more. Now there is no turning back for the path you have chosen. I've given you chance to explain yourself. You refused it. How I wished you hadn't. Or perhaps you are just showing me mercy by granting me the resolve to leave you, albeit I'm still all battered and bruised.

A chance missed

I saw the signs. And I gave the chance. I thought it was only a phase, until the confrontation. I had stayed my hand until you forced it. I pressed for the truth, which you refused to tell. I was hurt. Badly hurt. Alas I still had faith then, and I decided to give you and us another chance. You abandoned it. I held on to hope, albeit cautiously. In your folly you brewed your fall. Your friends could have saved you, but in their pride and ignorance, condoned you. Now you are beyond saving. You and your "friends" continue the "Don't always blame it on others!" campaign in oxymoron. The hammer eventually falls; only your family had been your true protectors. Maybe all these are from a divine intervention to show me the medley of the seven sins.

Sick of Nonsense

I learnt that it is not always worth it to be right all the time. Sometimes, we just have to put up with nonsense just to get by easier. There is however as to how much nonsense one can take. Besides, I don't owe it to anyone to take their nonsense. Yet to put up with their nonsense, I put myself at a lower level. I agree even when I know what they say is not factually true. I hold my tongue and try to cover for them when they make a mistake. I empathise with their views despite how different or absurd they might be. All this, I realise is no good for anyone. In the end, I wind up having to suffer for the mistakes of others. What for? Why should I bother about the inconsiderate and selfish, ungrateful and egoistic bunch? Its not like they do care in the first place!

Now I Know Why

A long time ago, when all was fair, jaz was close, both in heart and body. One day she left. Today I feel for her plight first hand. Now I know how it is like to be undermined constantly, to go unappreciated and banished to follow. No wonder she chose to leave this dysfunctionality. Maybe it's freer to be alone. There will be no one to retort you just for the sake of doing so. No one to try to prove you wrong, just so they can seem less wrong. No one to mock you for knowing something they don't. No one to falsify the truth that you speak.

Ego Sheep

I remember how a good friend of mine from jc kept undercutting me. He was in quite a sad plight then, having just broke up. So I became his food for pride, until I gave him a piece of my mind. All turned out well in the end, with no hard feelings. We were all just kids after all, what ill feelings are there for us to harbour? Now we have all grown. But it's just that some things don't change. There are always people looking to kill to feed their ego. Some, with their huge void within, simply hold no regards for others and taking at will; some, with a lesser hunger, sips on their prey slowly, tending to them like livestock and taking them slowly. We are all guilty of such acts. But that doesn't mean it shall be condoned. Inferiority complexes can be empathised;superiority complexes will not be tolerated. Scoring in one aspect of life doesn't put one right ahead of everyone else in this rat race. It is simply disgusting that by a stroke of luck, skill or talent, one merely gains a little head and then start pretending to be superior and assumes sole command. Leadership and dictatorship are often confused. They may seem to start the same way, but eventually they end in opposite directions. Take heed if you will.